Little one... I did not know you personally but the news of your demise was one of the saddest news I have had to hear and I dont know why so much that I had to write about it. Everyday someone dies, here and there and we get news but I cannot answer myself why am I feeling so sad and numb? I didn't even know you. I spent the whole day thinking about it even though I did not want to. It was painful indeed.
I finally got my answers... maybe I know why or maybe I still dont.
First things first, I just want to say sorry to you and your family because you came to our place and loved it like your own.You made friends here and I can see they loved you a lot. I get a strong feeling that you were those types for whom region and caste and color did not matter and I would want to keep my thoughts about you that ways. You thought it was safe for you but some heartless people proved it wrong and I am so sorry , you had to leave this way. How much it must have hurt you that your body could not take it any longer. I am sorry brother for the pain u felt ...I guess after sometime you did not even know what was hurting you.
I cant begin to imagine how it must be for your family and your little sisters. I have a brother too, maybe that is why I felt it a lil bit more. The Rakhi, that they will never get to tie again around your wrist, I am sorry for your sisters brother... noone can fill the void you have left behind. I cant imagine how your Mother must be feeling, those 9 months she kept you in her womb and all those years she protected you and see what she was made to see because of some ruthless humans. Should I even call them humans?I hope you wished your mom "Happy Mother's Day" this year brother. I am sorry for your dad who must have thought you will fulfill all his dreams someday and take care of them when they grow old, who had dreams of seeing you be a MAN someday. And I am sorry for all your relatives and loved ones for whom you must have meant so much, meant the world.
You know brother another reason I felt so much for you is because I have friends like you who dont belong to my state but that was never an issue for us because friendship is above it all, love is above it all.I saw my juniors' fb shares where I could see what a lovely, young and happy boy you were. The whole day I got shivers thinking it could have been them too and it is not like I was glad it wasnt them ...it made me even sadder thinking you were just like them to your friends as they are to me. It made me question arent my friends from other states safe in my own place or not? and I felt disheartened and sad and ashamed like I havent felt before.
I am sorry brother you had to leave this way. There is a lot of commotion I assume going on back in my hometown. People playing blame games, bringing racism, regionalism, caste, creed, politics, status and what not into it and maybe even blaming you for your death but the fact remains ...you are gone, you have left.There is not going to be another Rakshit Singh (DJ as your frens call u I see) for your family, your friends and your loved ones. Even though it is going to be painful ,I pray God gives strength to your family. I pray you find heaven if there is one, I hope when it all went dark your pain went away with it too. God Bless you kid ...wherever you are, whoever you were ...may he keep you happy. I hope how much of life you lived so far, everyday was a blessing for you, nothing less than you would have ever wanted. Your loved ones are going to miss you a lot, if you happen to bump into God just tell him it wasnt fair and before you tell him to punish those rascals tell him to take care of your loved ones first.
And dont worry about the ruthless monsters who did this to you...Karma will strike them down, sooner or later.Infact they should live everyday with the guilt of what they did. At last, Thank You brother for making me realise how much I love my friends and how much one should value time with their loved ones. And knowing from your friends I can certainly say that you do know every mother did cry, every sister, every father, every friend, every brother did feel sad hearing about what you went through irrespective of which place they belong to...every human being who has a heart did pray for you.
Rest in Peace brother....Rest in Peace.
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