Million Dreams...One Life

At times I stand still and look around, I feel like everything around me is moving and I am frozen, fixed to the ground...thats the time my mind usually gets questions about WHAT IF's and WHY NOT's...Some think I think a lot,some think I cant plan things. Is it because of the fact that I feel I have so many things to do still that I cant plan? Sometimes you are an inspiration for someone, sometimes you are letting someone down...So many dreams to fulfill, So many roles to play...So many things u have done and So many you feel you could have done or yet to do.Flashbacks of bygone times...an ounce of tension about the future.One life and so many TO-DO's. 

Some people...plain simple dreamers, some people too practical to dream what they think they cant have.Different mindsets, different attitudes...different human beings. 

Some people wish "I wish I was a celebrity" and Some people wish "I wish I was a celebrity's kid" haha...Funny how people want things their own way...guess thats diversity in the true meaning of it :P.

Maybe its just not me...Everyone thinks at a point of time MAYBE this wasn't where i was supposed to be...Maybe I can do better or Maybe I dont deserve it as well hehe...

Guess every human being has millions of dreams...some dream about money,some about fame,some about just gaining love and some just to play the game. 

Million Dreams set in one's eyes...Sadly just one life : / .

Posted by n!wa89 at 2:45 PM 

FRIDAY, AUGUST 3, 2012(from the old blog)

TITANIC

So when I say 'TITANIC',everyone goes back thinking about the romantic movie with Leonardo Di Caprio and Kate Winslet in it...the icebergs,the water and ofcourse...the people that actually went through the tragic incident.Since 27th Nov 2011...when I hear the word 'TITANIC',all that comes to my mind is a huge icecream...having different flavours of ice-creams piled on top of each other and to support it different flavours of wafers,with fumes coming out of somewhere from the bottom....huge and extravagant,if not for the wafers the Titanic would have melted off n fallen(just like it did many years ago in the ocean) before landing in me n my 6 crazy friends stomach...So to avoid the destruction of da falling Titanic,we decided to have a competition( 3 vs 3) with 2 titanics already ordered...1 of my friend ate wafers...dont know why.So anyways the competiton started and we went head on at 3 in the morning after a Friday movie night( to be specific,the movie was 'BREAKING DAWN-1'...heart u Jacob :) )...the competition got so fierce that in the end we had chunks of icecream in our mouths n were pushing da cold cold thing down our throats...my upper palate was numb.But the rush at the moment to win the thing was so intense that we were ignorant of it all....atleast for that moment :)...looking at each other,stopping our laughter,avoiding getting choked and our eyeballs trying to pop out but nevertheless,not stopping to eat..And finally ...the icecream pile reached base and then we discovered there was jam and fruits and jelly and what not (all tasty things) at the bottom of the pile...which was a good treat in the end after the cold feat we just had.The result was my group won..buhahahhaha.....
                       Altogether...it was fun and Titanic will remind me of the icecream( at OHRI's) now,a tasty treat and more tastier with friends to share with...For all these years it reminded me of the classic movie but now I am reminded of my numb and cold upper palate :P ...and a really really cold nose and a fun fun Friday night.
Love :)

Posted by n!wa89 at 9:29 PM 

MONDAY, NOVEMBER 28, 2011( from the old blog)

CREDIT CARD

So finally I get this call that tells me "Ma'am ur credit card is done."....I had cut da call first thinking the number was my mobile network's customer care.First the bank made my life hell...continuously calling me abt dis service dat i didnt want or wanted to stay away from for my own good.Then came a time when I needed it so much esp seein my frens gettin it n buying new n sexy android touch phones n the works...I started calling the bank but was tired out soon :P....and now ur here.Credit Card ...I had been waiting for u since a long time....Where were u wen i needed u most??? Now dat ur finally here I dont know weda I rly want u or not...cuz keeping u is like putting myself into debt.My desire to shop and get pretty things for myself will only have a more solid foot now...damn...I hope ur not here to make me happy in the beginning and then later not just sad but saddest in the end... :P ...Nevertheless...I welcome u cuz who knows wat i mit end up likin tom and my debit c. doesnt work.I'll always have u :) hahahaha.....

Posted by n!wa89 at 3:35 AM 

FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 18, 2011 ( from the old blog)

HEAD HELD HIGH

I stand tall wid ma head held high
When I look back I give a happy sigh
Whatever I am as of today
I like what I see cuz m proud to b dis way
Never a compromise,I did what I had to do
whether ppl felt I was right or wrong
never mattered to me too
Thats the reason maybe why
When I look back, I give a happy sigh
I stand tall wid ma head held high


Location:My cubicle (Office)
Time:12:06 pm
:) .... sometimes words just flow....maybe the lines r not right maybe the rhymes dont really go but then its just abt me writing wat I want :) ...feels nice to cum up wid sumthing all of a sudden and pour out wat u feel in 5 mins ...nice....should write more often here

Posted by n!wa89 at 10:38 PM 

WEDNESDAY, NOVEMBER 16, 2011 (from the old blog)

The place that I belong

18th Sept 2011...a day that not one Sikkimese will forget...nor will the people of the nearly affected areas.It changed the whole way of how I used to look at things.Life is short...smile,live,b carefree but when it comes to your loved ones it doesn't remain carefree anymore...and for that matter not just your loved ones...your homeland.Somewhere down I always knew I loved my hometown and I was patriotic(but hadn't done anything worth proving it) but when something like this happens u actually know the intensity of the feelings u have towards things.6.8 on the richter scale they say and the epicentre in my own state...my family and friends all over the state...and me out here 2 (sumthing) thousand kms away wondering,worrying,trying to get a freaking connection through my mobile phone so I could breathe easy.All my frens away from home calling each other out of despair...voices cracking,looking for some peace in each others voice...so lost,so grave...the feeling was a total pain.Tears didn't stop streaming down my cheeks.After an hour or two we get in contact with our families...only to know they are out in the rain,cold and the pitch darkness.The scared voices of my kidbro n babysis numbs me for sometime...how I wish I was there for them when they needed me.After the call ...still nothings fine...stayed up watching news all night,the same news repeating but still didn't tire me out.The next day's gone...still the fear lingers on.Death toll rising minute by minute...I never thought this would happen to my Gangtok,my Sikkim...and makes me realise how much I love it.This particular incident amplified my emotions,doubled my fears ...made me fall in love more with the place that i belong :'( .

Posted by n!wa89 at 12:22 PM 

MONDAY, SEPTEMBER 19, 2011 ( from the old blog)

ENGINEERING...for me

As of July 2011,I stand as an Engineer...completed course...no backlogs...no failed papers...Hell yeah I survived.Four years of late nights,maggi,coffee...pending assignments...and puffed eyes the following morning,one hour sleeps,one-night study...exams and quizzes every other week...frustrated with the lectures,the lecturers(would love to kill few),the administration...complaints about the food,etc etc (Engineers u know wat i mean).BUT FINALLY NO MORE OF DAT. A strong feeling inside that this is it...no i am not studying any further.Proud parents,proud friends,proud myself...Life now begins.No more hardwork...earn,eat,sleep and get paid for nothing....SO WRONG...."I'll never study again...never touch books...no more hardwork"...all proves out to be wrong...there is so much more to do...sigh...