In just a few days I will be turning 25, having lived 9125 days on planet earth. That is quite a long time. If you do the math it is 219000 hours...HOLD ON... of which come to think of it I have most probably slept through half of it ...damn... This wasnt what I had intended to write about.
Anyways, frankly I still feel I am stuck somewhere at 21 or 22...ok fine 23 atleast. Its hard for me to think I will be 25 soon in just a matter of few days. I remember as a kid thinking woahhhh 25 .... thats a huge number. Having aspirations and dreams that I am going to do this, go there and own that etc etc by the time I turn 25. Well guess what it doesnt work that way because just in between that entire period LIFE happens to you. So you might not do or have all that you would have thought that you will do or have or with some people maybe you never thought at all or with some maybe you have more than you ever thought you would have.
In my case, I look back and see and the whole journey seems worth it. From being a little kid to a naive and confused teenager to growing up and learning the ways of the world, everything ..all of it has taught me something or the other in some way.It has made me who I am today and thankfully I like myself for me,except a few things which is normal I guess. So I felt this is one such time when you deserve to pen it down so you can read it later if incase you make the next two quarters or one, or just pen it down to appreciate the life that you have lived so far.
As you grow up, things get a teeny weeny bit complicated in life. When you are a kid all you worry about is your playtime and your cartoons and the birthday parties, I dont even remember getting tensed about exams until I got one or two from my mother dear. Being a kid, carefree and doing what you want without thinking about anything else is so much fun. Thinking the moon is following you wherever you go is one such awesome feeling. You have no idea whats coming next and thats the best part, you dont think about tomorrow. Then without knowing, you become a teenager.Puberty hits you, you are confused about many things, you do not know what you want to do later in life...you dont even know what you are doing at that time to be frank.All you know is you want to have fun, hang around with your friends and just do whatever you feel is right ...Oh and also you get into relationships. This is also the time when you start thinking every fling is love. Also the time you feel every relationship that lasts a bit longer than a few months or a year you are so marrying that guy/girl. And not to forget this is the time you have like serious crushes on your seniors/batchmates and whoever you find worth looking. I have seen some of my friends, they could do anything to get a glimpse of their crushes during the lunch breaks haha.This also happens to be the period of mini heartbreaks for some. But noone will deny they would want to go back anyday and switch places with a teenager.
Then once you come out of it before you know it, you are in college figuring whats best for your future and making career decisions. Thinking about what you want to do tomorrow and where you want to see yourself. I think once you are at that stage, the journey after will always be about figuring out what to do next and how to do it and whats best, atleast for me it has been this way. We will always be thinking about what next and whats best for me and so on.
But while we do all of that I've realised, apart from just surviving you also need to LIVE. You need to be strong enough to handle what life throws at you...tough situations, broken friendships, major heartbreaks. You need to be able to take the hate and betrayals with grace (or well without it can do too) and just let go of few things that were not supposed to be. Accept what life has in store for you and learn from it. Its never going to be easy but if you know how to appreciate the good things in life and look at the positive side, there will always be a silver lining and a beautiful tomorrow waiting for you. You need to loosen up when needed and buck up when required. You need to give what you expect to get. Love fearlessly, love selflessly and most importantly love like a kid and always be grateful for what you have.
Today I look back and I see so many people who have inspired me in so many ways...my family, my friends, my teachers. I have so many people who love me and will always love me for me. I have enough kickass memories to carry to my grave already.Turning 25 actually doesnt feel so bad anymore. This post turned out to be something else than just recollection, it somehow has hope in it. With the way I've lived my first 25 I think the next might just be more fun. So bring it on next quarter, I am so ready for you. WOOOHOOO....
-Niwa.
